We are in the second week of February already! I am so glad. It has been a rough few months. Not cause anything bad has happened but because of something wonderful, exciting, beautiful, and something that we have wanted for about a year now.
I can't even tell you how excited we are. We have been trying for over a year and at the beginning of November my hubby and I sat down to talk about it. Emotions were a little high, but we decided that maybe God had a different plan for us. (Our 3 boys were so easy. We thought, "we want a baby" and boom. We were pregnant) so to go for an entire year with nothing, one starts to wonder.
Anyways, after talking it over we both decided that we were going to move forward and love the kids we were given. All I can say is WOW.......God works in mysterious ways.
At the beginning of December I had zero energy. Seriously, we are talking I HAD to take a nap every day or I was so out of it by 7pm that it wasn't even worth it. Other then that I didn't even think of the possibility that I could be pregnant. About 4 days before Christmas I was looking at the calendar and all of a sudden it dawned on me that I was like 2 plus weeks late. I am NEVER late. So thinking to myself, "well you have been under stress form this and that, and you're not having ANY signs of being pregnant so why worry about it." However I did have a pregnancy test so I thought "what could it hurt right?!" Well I think the test showed positive before I was even done peeing on it! I was so shocked I just sat there like an idiot not sure what to do next. How could this happen? We have been trying for a year with nothing. Then all of a sudden? I seriously didn't know what to do. I went about my day and tried not to think about it.
About 5pm it all fell apart. I started crying, I was excited, scared, wondering if it was real or not. After my break down moment I started thinking of ways to tell my man. I mean it was just a few days till Christmas so I thought that would be so cute to have and extra little something for him to open. However, we have had a miscarriage so we really like to keep things under wraps until we are through the first trimester. We were going to have family over on Christmas day so I knew that wasn't an option. I still wanted to do something cute, but I could come up with nothing. Then he walked in the door from work. I wanted to run over to him and tell him right away. NO.....I had to do it cute!!! (See this battle that I was fighting) Long story short, the next morning when he got up to go to work. (4:30am) When the house was quiet, the boys were still sleeping and it was just him awake. I woke up, gave him a hug, and told him....."I'm pregnant"
